why, or why not

片霧烈火

To get my happiness I had done everything, but had done nothing to be blamed and accused of. The sound of footsteps became louder every day, then I noticed the fact there was no time. I was a believer in life to be myself always, and was asking whether I would be alive. Give me a reason why not to adopt in this way, or judge me to be guilty of so many incurable sins. Tell me why or why not,complaining way too much, maybe I overlooked something fatal for me. 100回再生ありがとうございますm(*_ _)m